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Photo-manips... My first tries, but I think they can be shown to the world.

Lj cut to save space )
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Well, it's been forever since I've even looked at this thing, let alone updated it. I guess I've just had a hard time thinking up what to write or to even get things to make sense in my own head.

My mother was diagnosed with an aggressive form of arthritis last year and she's had to stop working. After 30 years, she's not really adjusting to being ill very well. But it might have something to do with my grandmother (my mother's mother) getting worse. Her osteoporosis has been getting worse and now her ribcage is resting on her pelvic-bone and thus making it rather hard for her to breath. It's logical, of course, because there's not much room left in her abdomen or her breast for her lungs or her heart. She's lost about 50% of her body-weight and she's down to 1/3 of her bone-mass. My mother's pretty upset about it, and so am I, mostly because I know how it's going to end and how painful it's going to get, for both of them.

But I actually thought I was dealing pretty well myself, even if I do have to divide my time between work, school and helping out with shopping, cleaning and such things. But tonight my mum called me from her cell phone. When I was down to visit my parents yesterday, my dad was complaining about elevated blood pressure and that he was feeling lightheaded, but he didn't think it was anything serious and neither did I. His face had the right colour and his heartbeat was regular... she called me to inform me he had gotten sick at work (he works about 75 miles from where he lives) and his co-workers had taken him to the hospital. Turned out he had a block in the arteries around his heart, and it had been there since Thursday or Friday. Now, my mother didn't know just how much damage you can do to the muscles of the heart when it's been deprived of oxygen for 4 days, but I do. He's still in the hospital after emergency-surgery (balloon-operation)... I think I might be in shock right now... and I have two exams, one of them due this friday...

I'm not feeling so well
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Well, I passed my latest exam!!! Yay for me!! It had me quite stressed out too! But I made it!

I should update more.. maybe that should be my newyears resolution: Update LJ more.

I've also been madly busy trying to make a website... still struggling with that one.. it's not as easy as I had hope it would be.

I updated my user-info though, so I have done something. And..let me see... anything else on my mind? Hmm... friday was the last day on the OR ward for me, it was sad to say goodbye to go back for a few weeks at school and then on to the next ward (it's kind of like an internship, but not quite) and we switch wards every few months. Sucks really.

I still have a story running wild in my head, but when I try to write it down.. well, it just comes out wrong and inadequate... I wish I was better at writing...

Hubby got 'GTA: San Andreas', so I don't see much of him. Just the top of his hair as he burries deeper in to the chair and picks up the gamepad.
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Snatched from [livejournal.com profile] sm_malfoy

You Are Scary


You even scare scary people sometimes!

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My deepest apology for everyone I role-play with, RL is kicking my arse with meetings and assignments and I can't keep up with much right now. I should be back to my normal mode of rp-ing every available minute I can by Monday... I'm so sorry.

Another rp

Oct. 16th, 2004 09:27 pm
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Who: Blaise Zabini and Draco Malfoy
Where: Slytherin Common Room and Slytherin Dorm
Why: Blaise can’t sleep and decides to tell Draco about his encounter with a Hufflepuff.
Warning: This log contains explicit sex-scenes. If you don’t want to know, don’t click the link. (As always the nc17 part of this will be linked to other site.)



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How random are you?

this quiz was made by alanna

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Out up new layout... well, not 'new' new... but I've had it somewhere else before. Thanks SM for getting me convienced that I shouldn't throw it away... ^_^

Made some icons.. Not sure if they suck or not ... had fun making them though...lol

I'm starting school... wards-duty and assignments... tomorrow. Summer is finally over. It went by too fast.

More work

Aug. 11th, 2004 06:10 pm
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Damn! I'm so unbelievably slow in updating here. It's rpg-ing. It's taking up so much of my time...rpg-ing and my job.

Gods, I never knew I'd hate it taht much! I mean, sure there are job that are better then others, but when you have to plundge your hand up some other peoples arse to dig out feces ... you just know your job can't sink any lower.

I can't wait till I'm back in school, atleast there I'll be in the OR, stitching people up and what not. Not... *shudders*...

On a more cheery note, my cars only been draged off to the repair-guy 3 times this month (errhh...last month), and it failed the national once-every-two-years test...So now I have to get it fixed...again!

I think maybe I spend too much time online... or at the computer anyways.

Current Obssesion; Photo Shop Pro... Hours and hours
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I went to see Hell Boy. I loved the charaters, the snarly remarks, the effects. I'm just so disappointed in the utter lack of plot in that movie!! I mean, how much more could it have cost to get someone to actually write a story?!

I've seen PoA again... still love the scene in the Forbidden Forest!!

I tried to see Clockwork Orange; it was too wierd and I was too tired. I will try again another day

Oh, and I've seen Van Helsing...Ok, that sucked! I mean, it starts out ok. Like one of the old horrormovies, black/white, the acting. It's great!! But, sadly, it's a downward slide from then on out. WTF is she doing in that skimpy little outfit? She's in Transylvania, it's freezing!!! But the werewolfs are WONDERFUL!!!

I hate my job right now....
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Hmm, I was going to start ranting on and on about evcerything that went wrong this week, but then I re-read the last few updates I've made; that seems to be what I spend most of my journal on doing. So, I'll just hide it behind lj-cut and talk about more pleasant things.

Arg! my week. )

Happy things; I've seen Prisoner of Azkaban!!! I really liked it, the way it's been filmed, the colouring. But... I'm not sure I like how... girly Harry Potter is acting. I mean, the saviour of the wizarding world fainting and crying all over the place. And Malfoy; he's being such a little girl... whimpering like that...

Good acting all around!!!

Saw the preview for 'Garfield', need to see that one!! Saw preview for 'Hellboy', not sure I need to see it. Have to see; Spiderman 2, Shrek 2, Scooby Doo 2 (a lot of sequels this summer)

Oh, heared that Josh Whedon's making; Firefly - the movie!!! Yes!! Really need to see that one!!!

Have seen the final episode of Angel, damn! They cancelled all the good shows!!!

Real Life

Jun. 6th, 2004 10:42 am
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Well, lately I haven't really had that much time to keep in touch with real life...I got my PhotoShop/ImageReady to work... figured out how to make little simple things on them...That takes up a lot of my time. And reading fics, see that takes even more time... and playing on: (pimping, because we can always use more players)

[livejournal.com profile] doing_hogwarts, the amazing rpg where players do... everything with a pulse really...lol...

I'm going to see Troy today, I hope it's good...I wish I was going to see PoA, but no... it doesn't open here till 11/6... arg!!

And just as I decided to spend more time in RL, I get pharyngitis... and I have fever so high that most of the time I forget what day it is; lovely experience... it does make reading a challenge though...

*goes to take a cold shower*


May. 24th, 2004 09:49 pm
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Change the layout again...I think this is much better!!

I was an ass yesterday... Yep...while I was going to bed I just wanted to close my window, so I pulled it shut but I couldn't get it all the way closed...So, I ofcourse pull harder, fumbling with the clamps...Just as the clamps snap on and the window closes entierly I find out why it wouldn't shut before...Two of my fingers were in the way...But now it's toolate and both fingers are bleeding like mad and it hurts like a bitch...I broke one of them, the other one just bleeds...

And what is the first thing I do when it hust? That's right, being in pain and furious I kick the bed-frame...hurting my toes as well...Arg!!!

Oh! I'm reading this great HP-fic (The Road Home, By Blanche Malfoy) It's soo long but the story's amazing!!!



May. 23rd, 2004 05:47 pm
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Yes!!! I've figured out how to use ImageReady... Weee! for me...I've been trying to spend some time in RL (with my wonderful hubbie) and so I haven't been able to RP all that much (and of course I had exsams last week)

But next week I should be able to RP again, yes!! to that... And find time to make icons (it's so addicting) and coming up with ideas for it....

And I got my fic back from my beta (all better now) so now I have no excuse not to start writing chapter 3...lol....

Amy! I hope you get on-line soon...*hugs* Will miss ya...

Speaking of missing; I miss when weekends were special, when German came natural, when I understood my friends, the days when I could eat an entier jar of Nutella with a spoon... ah well, we all miss something I guess...

*Off to make icon for [livejournal.com profile] lady_ameily *

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I got PhotoShop 8, and I can use a little bit!! Yes! But... I have no idea how to make moving icons. I guess I have to look in to that one day... Got the case; read up a bit on the subject (Lung-disease and Heart-failure) still don't think I have a chance in hell to pass this anyway. Maybe I should go study?

I've been working all weekend and one I'm taking care of is dying... That's not the bad part; the bad part is that some people when death draws near, they 're-live' parts of their lives. And it's not the happy ones; it's all the ones where they've been scared or cruel. Things they regret and can't change now, and they have to live it all over again... Today I saw the person re-live giving up her only child to adoption; she thought I was a nurse in the 1930'th and that she had just given away har baby. And she cried and cried, not wanting to give it up but was forced to by her parents (and the father of her child).

It's emotional draining to witness something like that... and I haven't slept much these days. I hope she finds peace soon...
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Oh! I've been trying out new lay-outs for my journal all day... Never thought that it would be so hard, or intriguing...

So, if anyone's reading this and is finding it difficult or if there's any other problems with this layout, please!! tell me... and it will be fixed as soon as I figure out what I'm doing...

I'll get the case that my exsam will be build on tomorrow... and the exsam is next wednesday... Arg! and I don'think I know enough...

Oh dear

May. 9th, 2004 09:52 pm
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Still not over my food-poisoning...but getting better by the hour, so that's an up-side.

All memes gacked from cissa_delancome

Damn it! None of the memes work when I paste them...hmpf!! burning
Your soul is bound to the Burning Rose: The
Rapture. "I go where my heart beckons me, and I go
with my head high. But sometimes, I get a need
until I bleed so my heart swims above my

The Burning Rose is associated with passion,
intensity, and desire. It is governed by the
god Eros and its sign is The Flame, or Physical
Love. As a Burning Rose, you can get lost in the moment
if you let yourself. You are a very physical
person, be it in relationships, work, or play.
You may be driven by your hormones sometimes,
but you know it's because you have to follow
your instinct.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla
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I'm having a bad, bad day!!!
Yesterday my hubbie and I want to a fair ( one that comes around once a year where I live) and it was fun!

I bought a necklace (dragons) and a hair-pin-thingy...and we took this ride; it's kind like a big swing, but you get twisted around as well (not to mention that it's 20 meters above ground) It was wonderfully terrifying!!

But, alas, I was stupid enough to eat a hotdog there; guess what! I got food-poisoning... So, I've spend all day nauseous beyond belief... not to mention that I really didn't get much sleep last night, had to throw up every 30 min.
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Damn! I haven't been able to get to my computer for about a week, and what week it's been.

First off, I've been swamped with school-work, and I had to think before answering; Studing to become a nurse can be a challenge - Who knew?!

And I was at a party last weekend, and my friend told me that she's been lying to me for 4 ½ months. And bout what? Who she's dating... and I don't even know the guy!! She acted like I was her ex-girlfriend, or something... I really don't care who she's sleeping with but I do mind that she lied for so long;

More... and personal info )

I need vacation... but no; I have to work, work work... well, maybe next year then.


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